urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anacolutha marc marc 2007-07-24T04:33:48Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anacolutha:159921 2007-07-24T04:33:48Z 2007-07-24T04:33:48Z there's this bit on bones where booth is arguing about how voodoo is no good and bones says "it's a religion no less valid from christianity or whatever you are... they pray, they have the same saints that you do, they believe in zombies" and booth says "i don't believe in zombies!" and she says "didn't jesus come back from the dead?" and he says "<a href="http://www.toadking.com/6x9=42/ghostbusters.jpg">JESUS IS NOT A ZOMBIE</a>!" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anacolutha:159003 2007-07-20T05:29:17Z 2007-07-20T05:31:05Z my friend olivia sent me this cool link to a <a href="http://www.mr-lee-catcam.de/pe_catcam1.htm">cat cam</a>, a guy attached a camera to his cat and took back the pictures of all the cat's adventures!<br /><br />What goes 'Tick tock, woof woof'? A watch dog... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anacolutha:156825 2007-07-16T17:50:38Z 2007-07-16T17:50:38Z "the tradition of all the dead generations weighs like a nightmare on the brains of the living" - karl marx<br /><br />"if liberty means anything at all, it means the right to tell people what they do not want to hear" - george orwell urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anacolutha:155615 2007-07-13T05:49:57Z 2007-07-13T05:49:57Z bones returning to australian television early august!<br /><br />"More happy bones! more happy, happy bones!" - John Keats, 1819 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anacolutha:155138 2007-07-13T03:34:25Z 2007-07-13T03:35:09Z <a href="http://download.yousendit.com/962F19F049E2F6D0">something</a> to download for scary friday. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anacolutha:152478 2007-07-02T04:50:28Z 2007-07-02T04:51:21Z <b>This Is Just To Say</b><br />William Carlos Williams<br /><br />I have eaten<br />the plums<br />that were in<br />the icebox <br /><br />and which<br />you were probably<br />saving<br />for breakfast <br /><br />Forgive me<br />they were delicious<br />so sweet<br />and so cold<br /><br />[1934]<br /><br /><br /><br /><b>Variations on a Theme by William Carlos Williams</b><br />Kenneth Koch<br /><br />1<br />I chopped down the house that you had been saving to live in next summer.<br />I am sorry, but it was morning, and I had nothing to do<br />and its wooden beams were so inviting.<br /><br /> 2<br />We laughed at the hollyhocks together<br />and then I sprayed them with lye.<br />Forgive me. I simply do not know what I am doing.<br /><br /> 3<br />I gave away the money that you had been saving to live on for the next ten years.<br />The man who asked for it was shabby<br />and the firm March wind on the porch was so juicy and cold.<br /><br /> 4<br />Last evening we went dancing and I broke your leg.<br />Forgive me. I was clumsy, and<br />I wanted you here in the wards, where I am the doctor!<br /><br />[1962] urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anacolutha:152211 2007-07-02T04:49:05Z 2007-07-02T04:49:05Z i've been listening a lot to garbage, garbage. actually i'm just listening to the song "vow" off it. i wonder why at the time i first bought the album in early secondary school, why i didn't really like that song very much. i mean, i did, but i didn't appreciate it the way i do now. now i put it on and jump around the room yelling along, it's the best revenge song ever. plus, it's a pop gem, with that raging guitar riff. it would be great to hear a quietly furious piano cover by someone, not necessarily tori, maybe even some band with a male vocalist. i like it when she says "you crucified me but i'm back in your bed", because you know something really bad has gone on, and that the revenge she's taking stops at absolutely nothing. maybe i'm an angrier person now than i was when i was 12. or maybe i just recognise my anger more. i'm pretty sure i must have been full of rage then, too.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.yousendit.com/download/bWJwZGluQVNsMHcwTVE9PQ">yousendit garbage - vow</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anacolutha:148744 2007-06-18T05:28:34Z 2007-06-18T05:28:34Z <a title="yousendit" href="http://www.yousendit.com/transfer.php?action=download&amp;ufid=C5951524756930F2">here</a> is a link to a download of a tori amos song off her most recent album with a catchy chord progression and good flow and cathartic lyrics that might provide some emotional release. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anacolutha:143468 2007-05-27T13:34:14Z 2007-05-27T13:34:14Z <a name="cutid1"></a>i just can't give a fuck about this essay for some reason.<br /><br />when i did my presentation about it i was aware that i didn't understand it fully but my tutor wouldn't help me to understand it. he shouted down what i knew was relevant and refused to listen to me. i really don't like him. he sits on a desk and looks down at all the students. he is only a student himself but he acts like he is superior to us. even my professor in my other classes doesn't act like she is better than us. he's such a fucking instructor. academic minds are equal. the only way to get the most out of a tutorial is if everyone is equal and contributing their ideas. he stops that from happening. sometimes he has said embarrassing things about my analysis of texts in class. it has really made me want to avoid his class. i wish i had never done this unit. i had to work out by myself what i thought of the text without his help but with his active opposition in mind, and it has taken me way too long. why didn't he help me to understand?<br /><br />trying to write this essay is really hard because i have to submit it to him for marking. i have to go with my own analysis of the text, even though he has already told me that there is nothing in it. so i have to go against someone who is the only person with an impact on my result, but i already know that he feels negatively about it. know what i mean? it's very demotivating. i don't want to explain myself to him. i don't want to argue.<br /><br />my psychiatrist said she'd give me a letter to explain my absence from class but she hasn't posted it to me. i kind of wish she would post it to me already. it's been over a week since she said she would do it. i have dealt with a real lot this semester and i really think it has affected my attendance. earlier this semester i was still having unformed psychotic episodes and delusions. and since i have been very emotional. how am i supposed to concetrate on my work being so full of rage that i can't sleep and so full of grief that i cry all day? it all seems unfair. it's hard to keep in mind that i just wanted to recommence study. i wish my parents would have sent me to st john's where they have a proper attitude to teaching.<br /><br />i want a rest. i don't want to think about this anymore. i want to go back to the gym and focus on my health. i want to go away with travis now. i feel like i can only fail this course and there's no point trying to complete it. i've accepted that i'm going to fail and i just want to chuck it away and do better next time. i fucking hate it but i have to try and do this. it's just really hard. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anacolutha:143102 2007-05-25T13:41:07Z 2007-05-25T13:41:07Z on personality tests, even personality disorder tests, what does it mean when it says, detail oriented or focused on the big picture? how can someone be one or the other? everything's connected, there are countless shades of grey. i don't really understand it. it doesn't seem to mean anything. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anacolutha:132545 2007-05-08T03:33:49Z 2007-05-08T03:33:49Z <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i194.photobucket.com/albums/z14/anacolutha/uesc_04_img0182.jpg" border="0" alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket"></a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anacolutha:121661 2007-04-19T01:12:11Z 2007-04-19T01:18:23Z here's a song i listened to for a week last week. i like the noisy guitar in the chorus, it reminds me of common people by pulp - but that this is dream pop.<br /><br />grandaddy - <a href="http://download.yousendit.com/B745096F2E497363">the crystal lake</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anacolutha:119193 2007-04-16T06:22:24Z 2007-04-16T06:22:24Z "one can get through almost everything on the strength of one good week" - madeline l'engle urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anacolutha:118451 2007-04-13T02:08:49Z 2007-04-13T02:12:20Z <a href="http://download.yousendit.com/8C1EB47D736262D7">here</a> is a song i uploaded to share by an australian band that was popular here early 2000's. i've never done this before so i hope the link works.<br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a>isn't it funny how you never really screamed at my face<br />but your anger so unspoken and unchannelled<br />permeates my essence to the point where i<br />don't wanna see you, hear you, be anywhere near you<br />you probably think i'm threatened by you<br />but your illusionary power doesn't threaten me<br />actually i think it's kind of funny<br />that you create an illusion that is a mirror<br />i don't appreciate you and i know that that surprises you<br />i suppose you see that those who follow their heart always win<br />those with integrity have won the match before it's begun<br /><br />so rather than being kicked around<br />i'm gonna kick you to the kerb<br />so rather than being pushed around<br />i'm gonna push you away first<br />so rather than trying to protect you<br />i'm gonna cover my bases first<br />so rather than trying to open my heart<br />i'm gonna lock it away with a key<br />so that only the special ones<br />can ever get through to me<br /><br />some can see beyond the barrier of threshhold<br />whereas others can't see beyond the sculpted mould<br />you could offer me nothing<br />you could offer me nothing that i need<br />and do you think i'm asking too much<br />for the kind of respect and trust<br />that shouldn't even be questioned<br />how can i open my heart<br />with dishonesty sitting next to me?<br />i've honoured your honour<br />to the point of embarrassment<br />but innocence in the hands of the guilt-free<br />is kicked to the kerb<br />i was ashamed of my innocence<br />i was ASHAMED of my innocence<br />but now with clarity i see<br />that your bullshit is just not worthy of me<br /><br />so rather than being kicked around<br />i'm gonna kick you to the kerb<br />so rather than being fucked around<br />i'm gonna fuk you around first<br />so rather than trying to protect you<br />i'm gonna cover my bases first<br />so rather than trying to open my heart<br />i'm gonna lock it away with a key<br />so that only the special ones<br />can ever get through to me<br /><br />don't wanna be angry<br />this is not worthy of me<br />and now with clariy i see<br />that i can walk away<br />i can walk away<br /><br />(sorry that i don't know how to arrange the lines properly. i just tried to do it with the meaning.) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anacolutha:118077 2007-04-11T22:48:48Z 2007-04-11T22:48:48Z i like some of <a href="http://www.villines.com/Internet/babes.htm">these</a> incomplete proverbs completed by 12 year-olds.<br /><br />"Where there's smoke there's ...Pollution." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anacolutha:113713 2007-04-04T13:40:15Z 2007-04-04T13:43:14Z <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W91sqAs-_-g">outstanding music video</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anacolutha:112584 2007-04-03T11:53:33Z 2007-04-04T13:47:15Z <a href="http://www.smh.com.au/news/health/dirt-could-ease-depression/2007/04/02/1175366131249.html" title="dirt could ease depression">this</a> could explain why my mother gardens so obsessively.